i am slowly going crazy, crazy going slowly am i…
and i’m taking everyone wit me. come alone guys!
i think in my own passive aggressive way I have gotten rid of the boy/man. he says he loves me constantly. I don’t blv him, he needs more people.
and one of them need not be the chick he cheated on me with. she loves him much
more than i do.
anyhoo.
so i’ve been debating on the decision of a dilema.
and instead of going out of town. I used the time to sleep and decide.
Sleep was received a desicion has yet to be. so…
in my own passive aggressive way. I denied everyone the beauty of my presence
including the boy/man and now he’s pissed/ mad and not talking to me.
wonderful…..
mean while back at the ranch. I am slowly going sane? i thought time without him would
make me feel like i was dying.
but that numb space within me that i’ve been holding onto for the past few months.
Well it’s not feeling so numb.
So maybe by ignoring me the way i ignored him. I’m receiving my answer.
Maybe, I can live without the boy/man and maybe he’ll learn that i finally don’t care.
B/c after all b/c i need space means Fuck You! 
